HAPPINESS

I went to see my doctor last week and she said my progress wasn't so good and the fact that I need to increase the unit of injections made me feel soo..uuurghh I'm gonna die soon. I've been very sluggish these days..

Yeah, have you ever felt like that? I mean, you are gonna die very soon, like maybe seconds afterwards. Many times I could feel the emotion of reaching the ending of my life. Man..this is so wrong.

Islam teaches us to be ready and be prepared to face the death. It may come in anytime, no one knows. And when it comes, no one could possibly expand the due time, or even request to have a peaceful death moment. Reading books, watching tv, driving, taking shower, on the bed, accidents. Death may come without any notification. 

While looking at the mirror, I could see myself in sorry mood. I'd like to say '' Sorry man, I always wanted to make you better but..'' haih there's always 'but' in my words..too many excuses, too little efforts.

Happiness in not something that you are looking for. It's there in your life. Chill out and live with it. Color your life with happiness.

UNDERWEARLESS

Since my boss isn't around, I flashback my memory.

Do you know anyone of your primary schoolmate who didn't wear underwear just because he was so lazy to put it on and just go to school underwearless? Well, if you know that person, you might be my schoolmate since almost 14 years back then. Yes, I'm that simple-yet-stylo-without-spender one.

You know that for many years I've gone to school as a student, I've never considered an underwear as one of the vital 'protection' for myself. Since it is placed inside the pants, so why should I worry if someone asked me if I'm wearing any. I can just simply answered yes, right..?

Until that one day came, I was standing in front of the class waiting for my friend to go to have lunch. He was still busy finishing up his homework (Not that I had done mine, I just too lazy to finish them up since I was so hungry).

He stood up, coming to me. He then slapped my butt (Yes, he did it real hard) and everyone in the class heard  the 'Paapp!' sound. They looked at me sharply. Just like I was cracking a joke in Maharaja Lawak. You know what was the worst part of it? My teacher was just standing next to me. Then I got the superb-easy but superb-hardest question to be answered. She asked:

" Tak pakai spender ke? "

* Please insert a Poker-face meme here *

Sometimes there's a thing that is better to be left unsaid. But, not for me.

" Tak. " I answered solidly.
I couldn't believe that I was so confident at that time. What should you lie if by saying the truth, there'll be no bad consequences affect you. In fact, the tragedy has greatest impact on me. They could claim me as inappropriate by not putting on an underwear, but who cares? It's my identity! My confidence level elevates! Lol

That was the true story of me as underwear-less student. Be yourself, reveal your potential identity. Hahah !

p/s: I started wearing underwear the next academic year. Good job..right?

PESAWAT

Brand new Indie Raya song has been added to my Raya songs list.

Dear Youtube, you need to provide a 'Replay' button!


PESAWAT - Menjelang Syawal

YAUMUNNAKBAH

Even though I’m not one of the people who had turned their profile picture in FB to something ‘brownish’ (If you know what I mean), I’m among the ones who pinned ‘We are in solidarity with the Palestinians’ in my heart.

Many (mostly historian and people who love history) know that it was in 1948 when the 'Persekutuan Tanah Melayu' was formed, but anyone knows what happened in the same year, specifically about 4 months after that covenant, to our Muslim brothers and sisters at the side of the world? Me don't know too, FB friends told me about it, and so Google.

15 May 1948 marked the day, where the unjustified country namely the Israel declared that they owned 2/3 of the Palestinians holy land. How come such illegal immigrants like them could have such power in taking up other’s land freely? Hmm..Well, million thanks to British. They placed almost hundred thousand of people from the Europe and Russian to stay in Palestine. Their support to this Jewish group had made this seizure lasts until now.  It's been almost 64 years, and still counting. As a return, misery and suffering felt increasingly under this Zionist Jewish captivity.

Since we can remember the day of Mother’s day, Father’s, Independent Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas and so on, there’s still space to put 13^th May into our memory as they called it as The Day Of Catastrophe. Please, hate the Zionist!

Brothers and sisters in Palestine, don’t you dare to give up and lose hope. I might not have given you enough gift or physical contribution, but you really have my prayers, always InsyaAllah. 

“Janganlah kamu merasa lemah dan janganlah bersedih, kerana sesungguhnya kamu adalah lebih tinggi martabat daripada mereka sekiranya kamu beriman.” (Surah Ali Imran: 139)

Bersama berjuang dalam satu barisan sehingga munculnya generasi Salahudin Al-Ayyubi ke-2.

15^th May,

Yaumun Nakbah = The Day of Catastrophe.

KEPALA

It was during the 2008 Thanksgiving break, where we've decided to go to Penn State Uni at Pennsylvania. There was a program conducted by MISG (Malaysian Islamic Student Group). Sebagai seorang freshmen yg pertama kali menjejak kaki di US, pengalaman travelling itu amatlah bermakna, dan aku memulakan edisi merentasi bumi Uncle Sam dgn menjadikan Penn State Uni sbg destinasi pertama.

Aku bersama yg lain (mostly budak2 mentah Purdue) lepak setempat. Segan nak duk ngn dak2 lain, yg kebanyakannya senior2 dan dak2 uni lain. Takpe, bukan assabiyah, cuma mengeratkan hubungan antara kami..(Erkk? Ok ini alasan.)

Biase la dalam program talk atau pengisian, mesti akan ada sesi soal jawab or takpun ade sesi perbincangan. Dalam kumpulan kami, masing2 malu2 kucing. Walaupun ade benda nak tanya, tetap tidak diluah. Tiba2 terjadi conversation ini:

X: Kita takyah la nak tanya excited2 sgt, lepak2 je..biar orang lain yang tanya or jawab..

Z: Apesal cmtu?

X: Yela, ni bukan tempat kita. Nanti nampak sangat kita ni nak buat kepala kat sini.

Y: Eh kita kena la tunjuk kepala sikit. Nanti dorang ingat kita takde kepala pulak.

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Suasana sunyi. Macam ada bunyi2 angin kt gurun Sahara diiringi bunyi2 cengkerik.

Semua memandang Y. Muka dua posen. 

Ok, kita tanya. Set.